The Road Less Travelled

To be confronted with two roads is quite familiar. But two roads that bring you to different destinations, difficult. Non-negotiable. You cannot take Road A and end up in Road B's destination or vice-versa. Road A is filled with light, comfort, and joy. But having waited for so long to decide, roots have been developed to where you are standing, Road B. It is hard to pull yourself out and sever the roots because it will cause you pain and much more pain you will cause to others. Discernment process begins. Probably, I have to admit that this is a reflection of my life, I might as well use I instead of you....

Okay, so, I feel scared to make the final decision. Scared to turn my back from God and the good life. Afraid to live to see the wrong decisions I have made. And why am I even thinking that going to Road B is a wrong decision? Something is really wrong with me. I am being unfair to those people who love me, who took good care of me, and accepted me as family. I see happiness if I chose Road B, but there is only so much. I cannot picture abundance. Why? Is it because I have not fully accepted that Road? Is it because half of my life was spent thinking, I will be alone with God. Serious thinking should be done.

I still believe though that God makes so many plans for me. If I chose not to go to Plan A, He has reserved a Plan B for me. And as stubborn as I can get, He has prepared Plan C - Z, including numbers to the infinity. God is more than one Plan. I believe that but why am I not so confident in making a period on this crisis? I need to make that decision that I would firmly uphold.