Restlessness in the Night

I can recall few instances that I can't sleep at night, but I can't recall reasons I can't sleep. Last night, my mind was so restless. It feels like so many things in my head want to come out and get real. Eventually, I slept at past 2:00 AM. One of the things that is vividly being repeated is the Proposal, my proposal to my girlfriend. It was so vivid it looked real. Make no mistake, I was not dreaming but the effort I exerted to think about it is similar to my effort when I am asleep. It was just flowing like a heavy downpour. And the ideas were all there. I see clearly the emotions, excitement, joy, peace. I decided to write about this because I feel that this is something very important. You see, at this point in my life, I am torn between two directions - two roads.. religious or married life. Now, it seems clearer to me as to the direction I have to take. Perhaps, this is one of the defining moments in my life. I felt like this is an answer God gave me. I asked for it, He gave it to me. Now, I'll be waiting for a confirmation.